smashing wednesday night. villa bali with the sprinters before zouk. had really nice talks with them. mann, that bottle of chivas got me pretty high before i headed towards zouk to meet the polo people. haha again, i didnt get id check! i seriously think i look mature la. hahahha. bumped into a few friends there. zouk is way cool :D

omg, then today, we had to wake up so early to give this birthday girl a surprise visit at PASIR RIS. OMG, i stay at bt timah okay, its like SO DAMN FAR. and in the end, she's like SO NOT SURPRISED OKAY ! what the hell. anyway, another long day. i'm so tired

i'm amazed at much i spent in two days. gahh, i'm becoming from good to bad la. mom's really unhappy with me. i'm like young and wilful, throwing myself into rejection - in hope and desperately searching for a something, but never knew what that something is. its like wasting my damn life away. mom is losing trust in me. i think she should too.

god, sometimes i think i deserve to go to hell for all that i've done. lying, stealing, killing, and all that i've done. boo

when I wake up here tomorrow

things will never be the same