suddenly, and then, i decide to be really emo.

i thought about the good ol' days which werent very far back actually yet still on going. i mean, those were actually the days when we indulge in the stupidest and silliest things, laughing over nearly nothing but there is humour in the air, love and hatred everywhere. so many things we've gone through, from first chilling out at holland v to many many different hang outs, which somehow ended during caps. how many situations ive came across have taught me how to deal and im still learning. nevertheless, best friend remains. and I LOVE YOU ! :D

<3

somehow, this big group of girls has become part of my life now. and i mean one BIG part okay. i see them almost everyday. we train hard we laugh we have fun and go camera crazy together. each of our different personality makes up what MONSTSERS is. and monsters is what we are, what i adore and i simply love them to bits and pieces. nope, this is not just sweet talks, but what i really feel. so let me do a bit of appreciation: i'd like to tell alexis fiona fionne gracia jiun jac lingzhen pandora serene sheena (according to alphabetical order so you all shall not quarrel ! HAHAHHA) how much i love you girls and how you girls have made all trngs and my life so wonderful. those outings, dinners after trngs, camera crazy times, laughing out loud, getting all so irritating, bullying ME ! and the list goes on. i'll remember them all. you girls have been angels. my seniors (which includes the pongkies and np2); you all have been nice people i appreciate too. guiding us along and taking care of us, though scolding at times ! hahah okay you all shall be angels too ((:

being where i am now was what i have earned from where i crawled out from. i have met many people along the way, lost some, earned some, and kept some. all those that have came and go were merely passing phases but some passing phases were so precious to me, still. they just have a soft spot in your heart; you just cant really forget them although the friendship's long gone. and it makes you wonder more when you do bump into them sometimes but all you can offer is a cold stare like as if youve never met them before. come on, we've shared such great moments; you and i have never forgotten them till today. -shrugs- this is life i guess.

this is gonna be weird but here it is for you _____, that we've been through so much shit together and how we first started out and ended and now we're back here as what i call passing phrase yet still so precious to me. no doubt im very hurt by the heartbreak you have caused me 1 year back. but all in all, really. i dont wish to carry the past with me to 2006, im here to listen whenever you have something to say or anything. ((:

and for all those out there that ive left out. which i know i did, but its a long list so you all shall be categorized together. hehh. okay, thank you so much for always being there, i try my very best to be there for you too! <3

and also for all those that ive been bad terms with (i cant think of anyone but just in case), im not gonna care what had actually happened to us or what ive done or what youve done. i dont see why we should pursue the old bills when the new ones are out there for us to settle. if you'd like to hate, then just be aware that the hatred is truly one-sided. come'on, just forgive and forget wouldnt you? hehh, much love.

okay, i think im a very happy girl now. with people all around loving me
-big grins!

hello 2006, im welcoming you with a clean heart.
merry christmas and happy new year to everyone. ((:

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